Your true nature, your original essence is infinite, edgeless, timeless awareness so vast and unknowable and undefinable it cannot be named nor understood. Likely, you will not believe my words nor easily perceive the impersonal awareness you are. By thoroughly challenging all the personal and collective beliefs the brain holds as true, there may be some amount of willingness to explore these mysteries of the ancient teachings.
From my experiences, once the mystery permeates all the waking hours and saturates the heart, this knowing away at the old tapes and stories inside the brain may begin to be seen for what they are – beliefs built on faulty assumptions and there for untrue.
When this determination and burning desire to uncover every untruth and lie nearly consumes all your waking hours, you know you are on the path to truth. Finding Truth with a capital T requires us to back away from all untruth as Richard Rose, on of my teachers often said.
Self inquiry helps to destroy all the conceptual and relative stories and memories of the brain/mind. In the ashes of self-inquiry nothing matters nor remains...perhaps only as an edgeless inky stillness, and even these words are too many. Such is the mystery.
At awakening I saw directly and instantly that I, too, am infinite and timeless stillness appearing as the Anita character in a dreamscape we call life or reality. The personal Anita self died traversing the ong tremulous Dark Night of the Soul when finally something of a mystery ignited a torch and burned to ashes all the beliefs and concepts of believing myself to be a personal self as Anita, a separate self.
Dying to the personal self is unusual and not often shared since it’s perceived as impossible and crazy to the relative brain/mind. Have you ever met anyone who indicated the separate self is a belief and illusion projected by the brain/mind? It’s too weird of a paradox for the brain to comprehend.
As humans we are taught to see and perceive in a relative way by well-meaning parents, teachers, and society. Our spoken and written languages are relative. Yet, toddlers, nature, animals and the awakened perceive life as undivided unicity…curiously, openly, timelessly, selflessly, simply.
You will likely not believe me, but I am here to say you are already that which you are seeking.
True nature flows so intimately as beingness, as sensory perception, that you simply do not perceive it, preferring to believe the thought-stream interpreted by the brain/mind.
If you are interested in Truth, at all costs, the teachings and nondual philosophy offered on this website may be disturbing. The teachings I offer here are influenced by my study and investigation of the ancient teachings of the Tao, Wu Hsin, the Upanishads, the Buddha, and Jesus the Christ..all pointing towards the illusory nature of a separate self in an illusory world created and projected by the brain/mind.
These nonduality teachings burned me as a character to the core, awakening a slumbering impersonal primal awareness that is timeless, locationless, and has the capacity to hold all appearances.
Email me if you have questions and I’ll point you towards what is seeing through your eyes.
If you are deeply committed to perceiving Truth and are inclined to join me for a retreat, a self inquiry group, or if you want to quietly explore the nature of beingness, you are welcome here (by appointment) and will enjoy the beautiful and healing gardens…a perfect venue for exploring the true nature of beingness and noticing aware presence as what is.