Exploring the non-dual nature of being and working with self-inquiry we notice a “me” that seems to always be present and aware. So what is this “me” that seems to be present? Most of the world claims the “me” as a separate and personal self where none actually exists. This is why self-inquiry is so very necessary….so we can see the intimacy of the aware presence we claim as personal and belonging to a “me.” So what is sensating/perceiving?
Perceiving is the undivided dance of what is and the simultaneous, instantaneous, perception of it…what we see and the seeing (perceiving/sensating) are one and the same awareness, consciousness, but awareness or consciousness not a thing…awareness is what is.
Awareness is not the sensating or perceiving of phenomena (subject/object) but is the perceiving/sensating itself — there are no existing objects or subjects…no existing concepts.
Since we only have relative language to communicate in the dreamscape, we might nudge a bit closer to what is appearing if we look in this direction by using these words: perceiving is perceiving perceiving…there is no perceiver or perceived. We can also say awareness is aware of itself as awareness.
Awareness, consciousness, is the perceiving, is the sensating. There is no separate seer, no separate seeing, nor a separate what is (as a subject/object) to be seen. Nor is there a beyond or behind/above/below awareness or consciousness experiencing as the witness…there is only a raw experiencing, sensating, perceiving…as an impersonal aware presence or consciousness.
As characters, we seem to have the conviction/belief that there exists an objective universe “out there” in which “we” exist. So…we (brain/minds) divide what is aware presence or consciousness – seeing, hearing, smelling, tasting, feeling…and thinking, into a subject we claim as ourself, and the seeming objects that make up our belief in an external reality or world.
And we believe these cherished and revered conceptual ideas and beliefs are true and real…but they only exist conceptually. Awareness or consciousness is already seamless, edgeless, undivided, and has never been separated into anything…into relative subjects and objects, only brain/minds create and project separation and external reality where none could possibly exist.
And since all languages are based on a conceptual world, a relative world…a world of this compared to that, of up and down, of here and there, of past and future…this makes all languages dead. All words are dead…they are concepts. Concepts can never be real…only fig newtons of the imagination!
Nevertheless, in the dreamscape, humans like to use language to create concepts where none exist….we like to name, claim, and label what seems to be unfolding….we refer to this as life or reality, and we even teach our babies and children how to name, claim, and label everything that seems to be appearing.
This tendency to categorize and judge happens innocently enough though, since the vast majority (98%) of humans never question what they are taught about reality, especially humans in well-educated cultures.
Most humans judge and sort life experiences into relative concepts with categories/buckets such as:
“worthy” or “unworthy”
“perfect” or “imperfect”
“loving” or “unloving”
“good” or “bad”
“better” or “worse.”
These judgments, claims, beliefs, opinions, and convictions are the root cause of all suffering. We accept waht we like and prefer and push away and detest what makes us uncomfortable, what we do not believe, endorse, or condone. We create categories, labels, and names describing what we believe defines who we believe we are. What if there is no “who” and only a “what?”
And yet, there is nothing really going on. It is seen directly that there are no separate objects divided by space or separate events divided by time. The angst and fear of believing we have control of our characters vanishes and it’s felt as an emotional, spiritual, physical and psychological release of giant proportions.
It becomes obvious that life unfolds spontaneously and uncaused…that the idea of you being a doer is silly. Paul Hedderman refers to this as “traveling lighter.” And it becomes as clear as day that the dreamscape, the illusory duality/relativity is what allows the experiencing of a perceived self and other.
Without duality, there can be no appearances of self and other, no characters to play with. You might awaken to realize your external reality or life is a dream and see that you are a dream character, but you will never escape the dreamscape.