The essence of all life, of all appearances, is not separate from perceiving and sensating. In other words, we apply our mental beliefs and concepts to what is a raw and unfiltered moment or appearance to create reality.
As we embrace life with a prayer or intention for seeing and perceiving without knowing, we seem to drop into vulnerability, rawness, and an openness to what is appearing…which I refer to as the peace of awaring.It’s awareness without a personal identity attached to it so I refer to is as a verb awaring. The noun Anita receeded.
Simply noticing what is appearing or awaring shifts our perspective out of our heads where we live trapped in knowing and suffering and believing we already “know” what is appearing. Awaring has no desire or need to know, name or label what is appearing and assuming we already “know” the nature of what is showing up in front of us.
Awaring is the raw, unfiltered perception or sensation of presence, aliveness, awareness, before we apply the mental beliefs, opinions, and judgments about what we believe we see and feel. The mental process, some call this thinking mind or the thought stream, divides raw appearances, what is, into body and mind, subject and object, self and not-self, thus creating and projecting a virtual reality or mirage we believe to be substantial, personal, and lasting in time. This mirage was my unexamined addiction for fifty-three anxious, fearful years.
Here’s the good news…there is a stillness, a quiet, a peaceful aliveness that vibrates right here, right now, but we are so enmeshed within the story of ourselves and our mental processes that we completely overlook, disregard, and shut out this perfect peace with the noise and stories in our heads.
Embodying presence is not escaping who you are but realizing what you were as a small child before you learned about words and objects and being separate. You have always been this clear vibrant presence…but you forgot who you really were and covered over your True essence with a personal identity. Society and family made sure to train you be a separate being with a separate identity. Unlearning all these tapes and rules takes serious inquiry and meditation so you can find and feel your way back to your original selfless beingness.. There is much love for you.