Sensing the Garden

Perceiving our environments directly with the senses, without any commentary or judgment, is relaxing, healing, and good for the body, mind, and soul.  When we are feeling happy and relaxed we are usually sensing life directly with the body instead of living in our heads glued to our thoughts about what may or may not be happening. …

Infinite Edgeless Vastness

there is a source a true self, a soul, she said and she fell through knowing embracing mystery… appearing to be and appearing not to be songbirds and stars shouting this mystery selves searching to find what is closer than close, beyond time, and timelessness i have a separate awareness, she claimed as claiming laughingly continues impersonally and …

Charactering

I opened our local newspaper this morning and saw this nondual comic while looking to see if my name is listed in the obituaries as Carl Reiner suggests. Apparently I am still here. I took myself quite seriously until the early 1990s when I began looking more deeply into the Eastern religions and philosophies. Something akin to Grace swept me towards …

A Me Wanting to Be

Let’s dig into the tendency to make meaning of what is appearing. When peeling the proverbial nonduality onion we often see duality as a concept to be hacked, dissolved, erased, believing duality is the problem.  Most, if not all of us, see nonduality as a goal, a state, and a finish line to cross or acquire on the …

Intellect

Many are obsessed with intellectual accomplishments and use the body as a vehicle to service the brain/mind. This is can be quite satisfying to those addicted to information and knowledge. When it’s all been read, said, studied, and analyzed, the body, not the brain/mind, is the better guide to what is authentic and not a reproduction from …

Removing Ourselves from Ourselves

Have you ever pondered the beliefs we cherish about the world we perceive? For instance, do you believe in an external, concrete world that’s tangible, independent, and outside of you? Most of us do, I did, until someone asked me if I ever considered all the beliefs I had accumulated about life, about reality, about the world. …

Winter Solstice Gifts

I awoke at sunrise today and welcomed the Winter Solstice rays into my soft belly. Winter’s fading light yields to the darkness so we may dive deeper into the nature of this Mystery, this Creation, this appearance of what simply is. Over the decades I’ve come to see the Winter Solstice as a perennial teacher reminding me …

Center of “Me”

It feels like we have a center, yes? I certainly thought so for most of my life…until one day I noticed I (as anita) was a well-developed concept and set of beliefs. Logically, and with all you have been taught, you believe you can feel life, aliveness, streaming through your body and that there is a center …

2018 Saturday Self-Inquiry Group

2018 Saturday Self-Inquiry Group The Self-Inquiry Group at Juniper Level Botanic Garden is for ardent pilgrims, ready, at all costs, to turn inward and discern the illusory nature of the personal self and reality and seeing aware presence hidden in plain sight. Here are a few recommended books if you are unfamiliar with the philosophy of “not-two.” The Perennial …

Longing

Most of us long to fix and improve ourselves and make an imaginary entity (a me) feel better, even more spiritual. Religions are famous for perpetuating this notion of being a separate and personal self in need of redemption.  We innocently turn to spirituality, religion, alcohol, drugs, sex, and money to fill the emptiness we feel as …

Relationships

Today’s essay is brought to you by the joys and heartaches of relationships. I received a note this week from “I’m Outta Here” — a younger fella who is about to strangle his very chatty girlfriend and wonders how awakening impacts relationships. This is a good question as it sends us straight into inquiry to look at …

Sounds

I hear the nature communicate her  timeless wisdom on many levels, but this “hearing” is not the same hearing that most people label as hearing. What I am pointing towards is a pure HEARING, a pure sensation just at it meets the ear canal and before it is processed by the brain and labeled and categorized as …

Paradoxical Jesus

I identified as a Christian pilgrim since the 1960s when I was baptized in a Southern Baptist Church in Raleigh, NC.  As an adult, I began attending the United Methodist Church since, in general, the UMC seems more inclusive to women and gays in the congregational leadership and ministry. But only after the miracle of awakening in …

Memory

What is memory and what perpetuates this belief-trap? Long ago and far away I lived in a state of mind that enjoyed and cherished pleasant memories and disliked or feared the icky and gut-wrenching memories…like the day I peed my pants in second grade…all the kids pointing to me, laughing about my lack of bladder control before …

Politics

I received these current events questions below via email: Anita, here are some questions for you regarding conscious responses to the current political unfoldment: How to Be the accepting of all as is while saying no to actions that create suffering? How to resist harmful actions by seeming others without inner resistance?  Having no idea that anything should be other …

Archetypes

Humans, believing themselves to be separate beings, begin collecting stories about themselves because they believe what others tell them they are and they believe the thoughts passing through the mind are personal thoughts. All this collecting…of stories and beliefs establishes or develops illusory personas, egos, and archetypes animating the traits and propensities humans take themselves to be.  Humans …

Aware Presence

What can be labeled “wrong” unless thoughts arise of an imaginary thing or imaginary self judging it wrong?  Put another way, what can ever be wrong unless “you” are thinking (imagining) it? Unless there is a “me” having thoughts about wrongness, does wrongness exist? Believing in an imaginary “personal” and separate “me” creates suffering. Thoughts have no …

Absolute

Many pilgrims worship and explore the nature of the Absolute or God when plowing through mountains of beliefs and concepts about the spiritual life, existence, and the afterlife. It seems there is nothing scarier than to ponder an endless oblivion at the end of living, or while living, for that matter.  As humans, wanting there to be something …

Ease

Not long after awakening as what is, I withdrew from family and society to spend a month alone in nature. I rented a tiny cedar cabin at a wildlife preserve on a quiet lake in the foothills of Virginia to write, read, be. Each day at the cabin included long walks in nature. This solitary communion with nature …

Experiencing

Can you point towards aware consciousness or aware presence? It’s what all experience is made of. Really. Look at your feet. If your vision is healthy, do you see a spectrum of colors? You are the seeing, you are the spaceless space that holds the appearance, and the appearance of feet. In other words, you are the …

Longing to Awaken

I believed I could experience awakening.  Bart Marshall set me straight and let me know awakening is uncaused and spontaneous…appearing to no one and beyond the beliefs of time and space. Perhaps like me, you believe, or you want to believe,  you can experience awakening…but you cannot…but this doesn’t stop seekers from longing to awaken and be present …