Absolute

Center for Mindfulness and Nonduality at Juniper Level Botanic Garden

Many pilgrims worship and explore the nature of the Absolute or God when plowing through mountains of beliefs and concepts about the spiritual life, existence, and the afterlife. It seems there is nothing scarier than to ponder an endless oblivion at the end of living, or while living, for that matter. 

As humans, wanting there to be something more after death, and believing in an enduring personal soul or spirit in an afterlife seems to draw and sustain many to an Absolute or God.  

At the core of this belief is a personal soul that will unite with God upon physical death and spend eternity with God in an afterlife/heaven

This duality of opposites is the realm of relativity, how one object or subject compares to another object or subject, the relative world or creation. In relativity, all things are true and factual until they are not, meaning relativity is changeable and dynamic.  

For instance, we used to believe the world was flat but no longer.  We used to believe that man could not fly, until in seven short seconds, Orville and Wilbur instantly changed our beliefs. And mankind would never walk on the moon, until we did. And we’ll never make it to Mars…or Pluto. 

Science is now embracing the fluid world of quantum physics…understanding that consciousness beyond relativity.  We’re reading more now about empty particles, dark matter, and entanglement. This is the fascinating world of exploring the nature of invisible particles and matter just by changing what or how a particle is being observed.

But no matter how deeply we investigate what is appearing, what is will remain as a concept, an idea, an opinion or a collective belief because it is appearing in the relative world — the world where the brain/mind creates all concepts and beliefs…including the concept of Absolute. 

The issue with quantum physics is the same as the issue with all science dealing with relativity – that the quantum scientists and physicists are assuming that the consciousness that is observing matter or energy through the microscope (or telescope) is a personal consciousness within them. Obviously this skews the observation – and adds a layer of misinformation to the observation. 

I spent years meditating and praying about how to reconcile the scientific facts with spiritual beliefs.  I had been deeply spiritual all my life and who was I if I was no longer spiritual in the way I was accustomed?  And who was I in relation to what science calls dark energy, which comprises 95% of the cosmos?

And for a while, the mystical teaching of Christianity and all the scientific information around quantum physics began to resonate and align with my relative human split-mind.  St. Teresa of Avila and St. John of the Cross wrote at length about the illusory nature of the split-mind, the separate, or personal self. Their teachings lined up with the ancient teachings of Lao Tsu, the Buddha, Jesus the Christ, and Wu Hsin, all describing an ineffable, unchanging, indivisible, omnipresent, and timeless God. 

Most most, it feels right to perceive God as relative. It feels good to a personal self to see God as other, as it offers a belief, a hope, a concept that perpetuates and exists beyond the relative realm.

This is a hard realization to absorb, but Absolute, the word itself, by definition, is a concept, created by the brain/mind in a last ditch effort to perpetuate itself beyond the imaginary conceptual appearance of physical death, beyond the imaginary conceptual appearances of time and space. All concepts perpetuate separation, it’s the split-mind doing what it seems to be doing, and doing it very well, as we swear what is is very real and true.  But it is not.  

In short, all perceptions are illusory appearances of impersonal consciousness perceiving itself in a dream of itself.

Impersonal consciousness can only know itself by spontaneously dreaming itself as separate, as an uncaused illusory dream, of forms and shadows…appearing real and tangible as indivisible, edgeless, seamless appearances of itself as separate and relative dreamscape characters.  

All appearances as form and formless are impersonal consciousness. Consciousness, Cosmos, Universe, Absolute, God, Dark Energy….it’s all impersonal consciousness, and words fail miserably to describe what is non-conceptual.  

Nothing real exists.  

What is appearing as life are illusory projections of a void dreaming and playing games with itself as itself. 

What more can be said?

anita

Reality

Center for Mindfulness and Nonduality at Juniper Level Botanic Garden

Last night I came across an article below I thought you would enjoy. I love it when life appears to offer us little winks and nods…Gene Roddenberry style. And this article below is another wink and nod to the imaginary and momentary projection we call life or reality.

As I’ve written before, unfiltered perception is key.  We go about our daily lives as this dreamscape, assuming our sensory perceptions—sights, sounds, textures, and tastes feed us information about the world we perceive as external to us….outside of us. Occasionally, a few actually look deeply and notice or deeply perceive that the brain is conjuring, from the illusory past, the conceptual world we call real…the brain creates an internal simulation of our so-called “external” perception.

Donald D. Hoffman, a professor of cognitive science at the University of California, Irvine has spent the past three decades studying perception, artificial intelligence, evolutionary game theory and the brain, and his conclusion is a dramatic one: The world presented to us by our perceptions is nothing like reality.

What’s more, he says, we have evolution itself to thank for this magnificent illusion, as it maximizes evolutionary fitness by driving truth to extinction.

So while neuroscientists struggle to understand how there can be such a thing as a first-person reality, quantum physicists have to grapple with the mystery of how there can be anything but a first-person reality. In short, all roads lead back to the observer.

And that’s where you can find Hoffman—straddling the boundaries, attempting a mathematical model of the observer, trying to get at the reality behind the illusion.

Quanta Magazine caught up with Donald D. Hoffman to find out more. (Read the full article here.)

In other news, The Triangle Inquiry Group now has a newsletter…thanks to lovely soul sister Jenny! Read the latest here: TIG Nov/Dec.

There are only a few seats left for the Jan Frazier retreat Saturday March 25, 2017. Call now if you would like to join us…919-772-4794 M-F between 8am and 5pm, EST.  The retreat fee is $90 to cover Jan’s speaking fee and travel expenses.

Our last self-inquiry gathering for 2016 is tomorrow at 2pm. Our group is at capacity so if you are interested in joining as a new member, please email me or Jenny to be added to the waitlist.

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Ease

Not long after awakening as what is, I withdrew from family and society to spend a month alone in nature. I rented a tiny cedar cabin at a wildlife preserve on a quiet lake in the foothills of Virginia to write, read, be.

Each day at the cabin included long walks in nature. This solitary communion with nature profoundly impacted the body/mind to the point that any remaining perceived boundaries of skin and sky dissolved.

And while retreating in this sanctuary, an unfathomable ease settled into every pore of my skin, absorbing and evaporating the remaining shards of the anita identity.  Nature peeled me to the core, blanched me in the rain, baked me in the sunshine.   Spontaneously, suddenly, I was, in every direction, and with every breath, unified as her, as nature, as impersonal consciousness. And this has not departed…now nearly five years later. The felt experiences at the cabin were like a simultaneous and paradoxical filling, deepening, and emptying. I could no longer locate myself as the center of anything, including the body.

Walking daily, my internal compass fell away. Critters were darting and playing everywhere…squirrels, chipmunks, raccoons, feral cats, foxes, deer.  Birds, insects, and butterflies glided effortlessly as the perfection, giving not a care to any schedules, rules, beliefs, or commentary about what life should be or could be. Just ease with every breath.

No latitude or longitude, nor time and space remain…these concepts died within the brain/mind. There is only here, now. The only valid location or direction is here.  The only valid time is now. There is nothing to strive for…no longings, no hopes, no wishes for this to be anything but what is here…now…as this… aware presence.

There is no more efforting or trying, no special way to be, or to see, no particular state of mind to invoke, or particular emotions to crave. There is only this sense of ease here, now…as this…infinite edgeless awareness and knowing what is appearing is perfection.

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Experiencing

Can you point towards aware consciousness or aware presence? It’s what all experience is made of. Really. Look at your feet. If your vision is healthy, do you see a spectrum of colors?

You are the seeing, you are the spaceless space that holds the appearance, and the appearance of feet. In other words, you are the seeing, the seer, and the seen.

All sensory perceptions and sensations are themselves nothing but feeling. This is the nature of all experiencing! It’s undivided. Awareness or consciousness is not two, not subject/object, as is the case with a belief in relativity. Nearly all humans believe in a relative world with a personal me or I at the center looking outward upon an external reality.

Believing in a model of life with a “witness” or “person” at the center isn’t accurate or real. This misperceving leaves the “seeker” desperately seeking for “something” that isn’t present. Uncovering our true essence or nature is about abandoning conceptual beliefs and models; and the conceptual belief dividing pure non-dual experiencing into a witness and something witnessed is merely another pitfall to overcome.

We read or hear that awareness is the unseen seer behind appearances. We’re led to believe that awareness is that which is doing the seeing, that which is hearing the sounds, and that which feels sensations. Thus, through every such statement, there’s an implied distinction between what’s appearing to awareness, and awareness itself. This sends us searching for this mysterious awareness.

What is looking through “your” eyes is impersonal awareness/consciousness, and it has never been personal to you.

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Sensating

Exploring the non-dual nature of being and working with self-inquiry we notice a “me” that seems to always be present and aware. So what is this “me” that seems to be present? Most of the world claims the “me” as a separate and personal self where none actually exists. This is why self-inquiry is so very necessary….so we can see the intimacy of the aware presence we claim as personal and belonging to a “me.”  So what is perceiving?

Perceiving is the undivided dance of what is and the simultaneous, instantaneous, perception of it…what we see and the seeing (perceiving/sensating) are one and the same awareness, consciousness, but awareness or consciousness not a thing…awareness is what is.

Awareness is not the sensating or perceiving of phenomena (subject/object) but is the perceiving/sensating itself  —  there are no existing objects or subjects…no existing concepts.

Since we only have relative language to communicate in the dreamscape, we might nudge a bit closer to what is appearing if we look in this direction by using these words:  perceiving is perceiving perceiving…there is no perceiver or perceived.  We can also say awareness is aware of itself as awareness.

Awareness, consciousness, is the perceiving, is the sensating. There is no separate seer, no separate seeing, nor a separate what is (as a subject/object) to be seen. Nor is there a beyond or behind/above/below awareness or consciousness experiencing as the witness, the witnessing, or the witnesser of experiencing…there is only experiencing, sensating, perceiving…as aware presence or consciousness.

As characters we seem to have the conviction/belief that there exists an objective universe “out there” in which “we” exist. So…we (brain/minds) divide what is aware presence or consciousness – seeing, hearing, smelling,  tasting, feeling…and thinking, into a subject we claim as ourself, and the seeming objects that make up our belief in an external reality or world.

And we believe these cherished and revered conceptual ideas and beliefs are true and real…but they only exist conceptually. Awareness or consciousness is already seamless, edgeless, undivided, and has never been separated into anything…into relative subjects and objects, only brain/minds create and project separation and external reality where none could possibly exist.

And since all languages are based on a conceptual world, a relative world…a world of this compared to that, of up and down, of here and there, of past and future…this makes all languages dead. All words are dead…they are concepts. Concepts can never be real…only fig newtons of the imagination!

Emerald Isle 2009 – Just rocking.

Nevertheless, in the dreamscape, humans like to use language to create concepts where none exist….we like to name, claim, and label what seems to be unfolding….we refer to this as life or reality, and we even teach our babies and children how to name, claim, and label everything that seems to be appearing.  

This tendency to categorize and judge happens innocently enough though, since the vast majority of humans never question what they are taught about reality, especially humans in well-educated cultures.

 

Most humans judge and sort life experiences into relative concepts with categories/buckets such as:
“worthy” or “unworthy”
“perfect” or “imperfect”
“loving” or “unloving”
“good” or “bad”
“better” or “worse.”

These judgments, claims, beliefs, opinions, and convictions are the root cause of all suffering. We accept some of life, and push away what we do not like, value, believe, endorse, or condone. We create categories, labels, and names describing what we believe defines who we believe we are.  What if there is no “who” and only a “what?”

And yet, there is nothing really going on. It is seen directly that there are no separate objects divided by space or separate events divided by time. The angst and fear of believing we have control of our characters vanishes and it’s felt as a physical and psychological release of giant proportions.

It becomes obvious that life unfolds spontaneously and uncaused…that the idea of you being a doer is silly. It’s what Paul Hedderman refers to as “traveling lighter.” And it become as clear as day that the dreamscape, the illusory duality/relativity is what allows the experiencing of a perceived self and other. Without duality, there can be no appearances of self and other, no characters to play with. You might awaken to realize your external reality or life is a dream and see that you are a dream character, but you will never escape the dreamscape.

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Eliminating Thoughts and Feelings?

Recently in the news I’ve heard or read of several well-meaning teachers, gurus, therapists, and medical professionals suggesting we change, suppress, or eliminate negative thoughts and feelings — as if this were even possible.  This approach rests on the core beliefs of being a doer and being able to create change.

There are no doers doing the doing!  It’s not possible to remove, change, or substitute emotions or actions either…what is appearing…is…what is appearing.

Is it possible for what’s appearing to change as it’s seeming to appear? No — it is already appearing! Most humans want the imaginary now, future, or past to be different than what is unfolding…a guaranteed recipe for suffering!

I’ve come across many blogs and websites suggesting practices, methods, and treatments to “manage” or eliminate unwanted and uncomfortable thoughts and emotions and these practices and methods simply perpetuate our misperceiving:

  • that there is a separate person to whom these thoughts and feelings seem to occur, and there is not.
  • that separate thoughts and feelings occur, and they do not.
  • that there are some thoughts and feelings that are better or worse than others, and there are not….especially feelings of anger (as if anger is inappropriate or wrong)

Notice that any method, practice, or teaching, suggested by anyone, including those deeply revered – Buddha, Christ, Allah, or Krishna, etc… perpetuate the illusion of a separate person, a separate goal, an endpoint, a finish line, a desired place, or state, or feeling.  As Bart says, there is no use polishing the terd. 🙂

The biggest and shiniest goal, carrot, or achievement in the spiritual realm seems to be enlightenment, salvation, and realization — also fueling and perpetuating a consensus belief in a separate self identity that might eventually reach these imaginary prizes.

Nonduality, spirituality, and oneness preachers and gurus are incredibly popular and are a convenient way of avoiding and hiding from the flimsy and illusory nature of the separate self and reality.  These teachers and gurus offer a safe and secure comfort zone for those obsessed with reaching these goals. Interestingly,  I have seen many of these gurus are themselves believing in a lasting unicity or eternity of existence beyond the bodymind.

Anytime you hear or read of gurus and teachers referring to an essence, entity, awareness, or consciousness as anything lasting, solid, or fixed… such as a true self or an eternal self, or as an absolute awareness or consciousness…look out!

There is nothing lasting, remaining, transcending…and concepts and words are simply the objectifying brain/mind/ego attempting to perpetuate itself in an imaginary future, heaven, dimension, when not even nothing exists – just edgeless, infinite, impersonal awareness aware of itself.

In short, all perceptions are illusory appearances of impersonal awareness perceiving itself in an imaginary dream as itself.  No separate self or dream character can awaken or be enlightened outside of the illusion. At best, an illusory character might realize itself as an illusory character in a dreamy illusion of impersonal awareness and laugh at the possibility of escape or enduring beyond the apparent physical death of the dream character.

The duality, the relative world, is the only platform, or place, if you will, where aware presence or impersonal awareness can know itself, as itself and as other, by spontaneously appearing as it’s own dreamworld.  How brilliant and remarkable that appearances appear at all!

anita

 

Misidentification – Part 4 of 4

Today’s essay addresses the universal ability to miss what is in plain sight. The vast majority of humans have misidentified awareness as personal and dwelling within the body.

Well-meaning parents, educators, religious leaders, and society have passed along their unexamined beliefs about awareness and consciousness and most children have accepted this opinion as being true…after all, it is proclaimed by the majority of scholarly adults.

Those few who actually deeply and directly explore the nature of awareness will fall to the floor in shock and awe upon seeing and discovering the simplicity of awareness and how it has remained so vastly misidentified.

And not because awareness is hard to see or understand, but because it is so freakishly near, simple, and obvious…just watch any small child who is fully present playing with an empty box or plastic container. Human beings value what is complicated, complex, intellectual, as though the delicate and simple flow of just being and breathing is not complex or miraculous enough to require our full attention.

The separate self is truly a fictional character created by the brain/mind. Investigate, go within using self inquiry, and explore the beliefs and concepts conjuring the specific person you believe yourself to be.

There is only uncaused, spontaneously appearing impersonal awareness, seamless, edgeless, indivisible, so it cannot be divided into seven billion individual units.

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What Lifts the Veil – Part 3 of 4

Who or what can bring about change, what can create, motivate, cause any action… when there is only uncaused, spontaneous appearances of what seems to be?

What lifts the veil to expose the illusory nature of what is seeking?  Seeking spontaneously appears, uncaused, and to no one in particular in the illusory dream of life.

We know words and thoughts are divisive, or create division, it’s just the nature of brain/minds to provide running commentary on all appearances.  Language is simply the relative and rational process of the brain/mind naming, claiming, and describing the seamless, edgeless, vastness of awareness into discreet objects and subjects to project an imaginary relativity.

How do we point towards what is not measurable; without any identity; not relational; indivisible; uncaused, edgeless, seamless, spontaneously appearing awareness?  We cannot.

Even words like Source, Brahman, Universe, Absolute, Allah, Tao, Consciousness, Yehweh, Grace, or God are concepts defined and imagined in the brain/mind. The word is not the thing.

Even the word Absolute is a concept created by the brain/mind.

From a different vantage point, we may be able with self inquiry to see how powerless the human brain/mind is to grasp the essence of it’s own (the brain/mind’s) illusory nature, but this seems to rarely appear.

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Relative Brain – Part 2 of 4

The personal self that is seeking freedom or awakening is the hinderance or roadblock to uncovering what is appearing now.

The brain/mind creates and fashions the illusory self by objectifying what seems to be appearing. Many scientists are of the opinion that the mind is an invisible relational-process-regulator of the neural flow of information in the brain and body. Do you accept what brain scientists report about this mysterious beast?

Being a relative beast (subject and object), the dualistic nature of the mind is the source of the division of words and thoughts into names, labels, categories, distinctions, and definitions.

This relative quality of brain/mind is the very foundation for our belief in separation, the belief in a separate being as a “me.”

  • If all our thoughts and words in the brain/mind are based on a global belief in separation or duality, then we will always view the world as discreet objects being viewed by discreet subjects.
  • The brain/mind that seeks can never find what it is seeking – the seeking brain/mind cannot believe the aware presence it intimately feels…is the same aware presence, though impersonal, it is seeking.  
  • Most all people create an elaborate life story and personal archive of traits and identity and then search for a primal or original identity which is always present and overlooked!  
  • But the character cannot see that what is seeking is seeking itself, and cannot locate itself because it is too simple and too close to be the final answer.  
  • Beliefs and concepts of being a doer, a separate being, must fall away in order to live simultaneously as aware presence as the observer, the observing, and the observed.

The sense of a separate self must be seen as the illusion it is. The separate self is merely a projected illusion the brain/mind constructs to maintain the identity of being a separate entity.

There has never been a separate entity, so there is nothing to seek towards…only something to realize now or uncover now – the personal self has never been anything but an illusory belief created and held in place by an objectifying brain/mind.

Many have compared aware presence to a movie script displaying scenes passing across a silver screen.  Both brain/mind and movie are projections.  The brain/mind is projecting a dualistic version of reality where none exists since the brain cannot ever contemplate infinite, edgeless, timeless awareness.

With the advancements in functional magnetic resonance imaging we now safely and non-invasively measure and map activity in the brain to gain a wider understanding of the relationship between the brain and the mind. But with all the science and technology at our fingertips, scientists still do not know how to engineer the flow of information into being-ness, but aware presence is not a flow as a flow would require a belief in time to sustain it. 

Here is the easy way to understand all this scientific stuff…simply observe small children and babies when they play as they demonstrate the ease and joy of accepting and noticing what simply is.

Every word, thought, or object the brain/mind describes, references, or points towards is simply the impersonal, uncaused, spontaneously arising, indivisible, seamless, emptiness of aware presence appearing as forms and formlessness in it’s own illusory dream of nothingness, and yet, not there is not even nothing.

Just ask the toddlers and little kids about time and gravity and they will simply look at you and hand you a toy and want to play.

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The Seeking Self – Part 1 of 4

The separate or personal self that is seeking is the hinderance or roadblock to uncovering what is already present. It’s a simple case of mistaken identity.

There simply is no separate self or personal identity, only appearances of impersonal awareness appearing as what is. The personal self is an illusion. There are no separate selves, no separate objects, only a seamless, edgeless, uncaused and spontaneously appearing aware presence as everythingness in an edgeless and illusory appearance.  But why do I feel separate, you might ask…

We’ve noticed the intimacy and sense of an immediate and unique presence since we were small children, and we’ve been taught that this presence is personal and specific to us because this is what most believe to be true.

Small children are always in touch with the impersonal awareness they already are.

As older children and adults, we’ve simply forgotten what we are, and/or we’ve never explored our identity and only accepted what others have told us.

The concept of “I” as a separate or personal being with a name is a learned concept taught to babies and small children by well-meaning parents, family, teachers, neighbors and society.

Most humans follow the leader and embrace the beliefs and customs passed down from authority figures through the ages.

Those who question the deeper nature of identity, beingness, awareness and consciousness, are usually few and far between, and for those few, it’s often a catastrophic event that launches the deep inner journey to examine reality and self through self inquiry

Most understand the state of unconsciousness found in dreamless sleep, while under anesthesia, or in a coma, as the state of being unaware and unable to process sensory inputs from the body. There is no sense of a personal or separate self to be experienced in dreamless sleep, coma, or unconsciousness.

On the other hand, during periods of dreaming while sleeping, the brain/ mind is active and the sense of being a watcher or observer is experienced. Occasionally, lucid dreaming occurs when the sense of beingness as a dreamer senses that dreaming is occurring. Upon waking each morning, ordinary awareness arises and we take this awareness or consciousness to originate within and belong to a specific person, “me.”

Considering we spend at least one third of life unconscious, it appears this routine period of unconsciousness each 24 hours is critical to health and wellbeing. Scientists and physicians validate this need for deep restorative sleep. Is the source of the unconscious state during dreamless sleeping the same source that experiences dreaming sleep and the conscious state in waking hours? Where is the personal “I” in dreamless sleep?  How does the personal “I” arise when waking from sleep?

If you explore these questions deeply you will eventually discover the personal self is an illusion, a concept or complex set of beliefs reinforced by the widely-held beliefs and concepts of time and location. When the beliefs in the passage of time (past/future) is dissolved, the beliefs holding together the personal self eventually dissolve as well.

Beliefs are mental constructions, shadows on the wall, the stories created and claimed by the mind. There is only aware presence appearing, but the brain/mind must objectify all appearances.  Seeking arises spontaneously, to no one in particular, as fleeting appearances in the vast, empty, uncaused and spontaneous appearances of what simply is.

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Awareness

The belief that creation unfolds at the feet of seven billion individuals, each with a personal awareness and consciousness, is the belief of the vast majority. I also believed this until 2011 when I witnessed the falling away of the personal identity I claimed as mine. I had been consumed for decades with spiritual introspection, and later self-inquiry, about the nature of existence, what happens after death, and the purpose of life.

I eventually realized, that the omnipresent awareness always seemed to be seeing from behind my eyes had never been personal or separate. I had mistakenly decided/believed/been told that I had a separate and personal awareness and I never questioned this belief since it was widely held by the vast majority of the world.

Jesus the Christ seemed to be pointing towards this mystery in the New Testament, but I did not have the ears to hear what he was pointing towards when he said he and the father are one.

There is only aware presence and it is indivisible. Whatever is seeming to appear in front of these eyes, and behind these eyes, is awareness as appearances. Awareness is the sum and substance of the appearance of creation or reality.

Yes, it may appear that seven billion individuals are here because we have all been taught to believe we are separate and exist in the concept of time and space. This is false.

Awareness appears as the momentary dreamscape called life. What’s looking through these eyes at this moment is this very same awareness observing and animating the energy of the momentary appearance of this human body as an ordinary person in a lovely dreamscape.

Today, from behind and in front of these eyes, it seems all human emotions and thoughts are still in play, and the dreamscape feels tangible….but this, what is, is simply fleeting appearances of aware presence.

There are no longer any beliefs and commentaries running about time, space, distance, becoming or improving. Nothing adds to or takes away from the raw seeing and perceiving of what simply is…what is appearing here, now, as this moment. 

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What Remains?

It’s “mind-blowing” to directly see the tricks and games the brain/mind plays to perpetuate itself as a separate and distinct entity where none exists.

Shockingly, there is no path to traverse…where would it lead? And for who? And for what?  This is…what is…an uncaused, spontaneously appearing impersonal consciousness playing and dreaming an illusory and relative dreamscape as itself. Paradoxically…seeking appeared and searching unfolded in the dreamscape of the anita character as she explored the longings in her heart for Truth, for what is.

There is nothing or no one to attain, to become, to achieve…these beliefs are illusory concepts of an illusory brain/mind struggling to claim and assert a separate self where none can possibly exist.

As the Anita character, what remains, if anything could remain, is the dreamscape appearing as life.  Anita no longer has internal reference points…just raw perceptions appearing as forms and formlessness across an uncaused and spontaneously appearing infinite ocean of impersonal consciousness.  The personality traits and preferences of the Anita character are mostly still in play, even heightened, and are now seen as impersonal consciousness playing as as its own dreamscape.

Emptiness is nowhere and everywhere and yet a profound intimacy and compassion embraces the character, the empty fullness, and unconditional love and compassion radiate as appearances. There is no ability to be inside nor outside of what is. No-thing-ness appears as the illusory every-thing-ness as a seamless, edgeless, undivided spontaneous and uncaused dreamscape.

Anita’s human emotions seem to appear, even super-heightened, as is apparent when she appears. Her quirky personality is projected as the illusory Anita character…no escape, no eternity, nothing remains. Remain and remaining are concepts of the split-mind that lives and plays in the imaginary land of time and space.

If you’re living in bliss and nirvana then by all means enjoy these states of the split-mind as they are simply a few of the thousands of expressions and states of mind in the split-mind’s bag of tricks…ultimately as projections of impersonal consciousness.  There has never, ever, been a personal or separate identity as a self, as the experiencer of these states. Nor has there been any distinct states of mind, only the labeling of phenomena and noumena by a misperceiving brain/mind believing itself to be a personal self.

Unfortunately, many seekers are caught up in the bliss and nirvana movement and are calling these exquisite feelings “enlightenment” or “realization.”  Of course, these appearances of “enlightened” folks are unfolding within impersonal consciousness too… but there is zero possibilities for realization or enlightenment for any individual — there are no individuals – only impersonal consciousness dreaming a dream as itself.

How does a separate person reach enlightenment or realization? It’s ridiculous to think an illusory self in an illusory world can become anything, much less become substantial, true, or otherwise solid…though many enjoy drinking the new age kool-aid, wearing robes, beads, and creating spiritual names while singing kumbayaa. And this too is appearing as the perfection of what simply is.

The few seeing the illusion of the illusion mostly laugh and cry, embracing the tenderness and ache of nothingness appearing as an empty everythingness as a dreamscape.  What can be added or taken from an illusion or a dream?

Stillness, aloneness, aliveness, and amazement…and a loving sorrow are felt textural expressions of impersonal consciousness, but these do not flow through substantive indiveric-frommidual humans. Emotions, sensory sensations, and the projected brain/mind also appear as impersonal consciousness creating the illusion of reality. There is no way out… what is is illusory, but isn’t it just amazing how real, and tangible what is appears to be?

The paradox of what is is overwhelming to pilgrims attempting to comprehend. No individual preferences. Who is there to prefer? What is preferring? Yet preferring spontaneously appears, to nothing or no one in particular as impersonal consciousness. The illusory character appears to have preferences but impersonal consciousness projects the illusion of all.

How else can an uncaused, edgeless, choiceless, centerless, spontaneously arising impersonal consciousness experience Itself as self and other unless it dreams 7 billion interesting characters in a dreamscape of separation?

What remains? What could possibly remain or not remain in an illusion? There is nothing to add, nor nothing to remove, how could there be? This is…what is...as edgeless, fullness, seamless, center-less, choice-less, uncaused emptiness… and yet it appears as embodied illusory beings through which impersonal consciousness dances as forms and formlessness.

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Consciousness is Perceiving

What’s looking through the eyes claimed as yours? Have you ever questioned the nature of what’s looking, of what you are, of what is appearing?

Here’s the back of the book answer…what’s appearing is impersonal consciousness spontaneously projecting/flowing through the eyes you call yours, as the appearances of forms and formlessness in a dream of itself. It’s not really a flow, but it feels like a flow as long as the beliefs in time and space are still operable.

Perceptions and sensations are impersonal consciousness and it’s not divisible into parts or pieces anymore than you can carve out a slice of the sky. This is why there is no time and space, no inner or outer consciousness….consciousness cannot be divided.

Language, being relative and conceptual, lacks the scope to point towards what is as what is is non-conceptual, indivisible, and uncaused.  But what are we and how do we know?

We’ve been programmed since babyhood to believe we are separate…that we have a separate and unique consciousness, a personal consciousness within us – as us. Not true. What is appearing is consciousness…and it’s impersonal.  But when 99% of all humans believe something to be true, they call it a truth, a fact, a conviction…and it’s usually written in stone, until it’s not.  The world is flat, man can’t fly, we’ll never go to the moon, never a computer small enough to fit in your pocket.

Consciousness is indivisible, timeless, formless, limitless, infinite, spontaneously appearing and disappearing, uncaused.  There is no inside or outside to consciousness, nor is there a before or after…it’s edgeless, centerless, indivisible, and immeasurable.

Consciousness is not a person, thing, or thing, not a object or a subject… yet it includes and contains all things simultaneously as this unspeakable, unnameable unknowable singularity. What is…is a virtual reality of opposites/duality/separation and yes, of you and me.

The consciousness we perceive as ours and the external reality we seem to experience are actually one in the same ineffable, indivisible, impersonal consciousness. We mistakenly take this conscious to be personal to us since it feels as though consciousness originates or is located within the center of the body/mind. The brain/mind will argue otherwise, since the brain/mind’s main job is to claim a personal ownership of every appearance.

There is only impersonal consciousness, and it appears, if it appears at all, as shining and reflecting through infinite prisms or perceptual lenses as a dream of itself.  I find this fascinating and amazing.

anita

 

Radical Love

Radical love, outrageous love, has no-boundaries, edges, corners, holes…it’s beyond description …it’s beyond comprehending by a relative, conditional, and objectifying human brain/mind.

Radical love sees no separation between evil and good, sorrow and joy, fear and courage, form and formless, pain and pleasure, birth and death. Love bows equally to everything imaginable and unimaginable, both horrific and holy.

Radical love is beyond measure, beyond anything quantifiable or knowable. Beyond beyond. Love cannot be contained in a mere word or language. It is so much bigger than big, huge, infinite, ineffable. Love is bigger and wider than Peace, Joy, Bliss, deeper than infinite, and more vacuous than void or infinite repeating oblivions.

Love is beyond illusory human comprehension yet closer and more intimate than the tiny hairs in our illusory noses. Only radical love seems to be appearing…uncaused, spontaneously flowing, reflecting, refracting, edgeless, seamless, limitless, nothingness appearing as everythingness, and not even that.

anita

Pathless Path

Isn’t walking a spiritual path based on wanting, desiring, or a sense of incompleteness?

As a spiritual pilgrim, i desired to be near God and dwell in Heaven when i died.  i desired to be cleansed of my sins.  i wanted to be a good Christian woman, wife, and mother. Desire and passion fueled my search for answers for decades until the mechanism creating desire dwindled during the dark nights of the soul.

Seeking appears to arise as a personal self aims to receive something, earn a designation, obtain a guarantee, or uncover something perceived or believed to be missing or wanting. i assure you seeking of any kind is utterly useless, yet seeking appears to occur. Completeness, peacefulness, stillness is here now. It is the silent, ineffable and omnipresent consciousness that is animating your body and all appearances of creation.

The peaceful, silent, aliveness you already are is covered and shrouded in layers of untruth created by the brain/mind. Inquiring into the mechanics and workings of the mind is a pathless path to uncovering what is already appearing.

Right now, feel the body moving effortlessly — the eyes reading the screen, hands typing or writing, without claiming the movements as “yours.” Once the light of inquiry pierces the thin membrane of the brain/mind, the fierce grip of separateness slowly unwinds and releases sweet relief from a coiled body.

Feel the spaciousness you are when the mind is silent, no longer claiming bodily movements and activities with ownership.

Impersonal spaciousness and vastness is all there is. Allow unwinding, unspooling, and uncoiling to melt the false beliefs and concepts blinding you to the truth of what you already are.

Close your eyes and see what you are now, and what you are not. Are you limitless..are you personal?  Are you caused or uncaused?  Spontaneous or planned?  How do you know?  What knows?  What is knowing?  Are the knowing, the knower and the known separate?

Peace simply is ….beyond separateness, distinctions, and fears created by brain/mind.

anita