What we really are is already present, here, now, as this aware presence. Of course, this is not what we imagine ourselves to be.
I write to describe and share the beauty and clarity of this perceiving, how it felt and feels now, what it looks like, and the simplicity of a nondual philosophy of reality. Perhaps you will consider this website a simple roadmap with signposts for discovering and seeing what you really are at this moment.
The essays and writings here reflect the paradoxical nondual teachings I absorbed on the path to seeing how easily I misperceived identity and reality. Language is relative, using subject and object, so describing nonduality without using the relative comparison of subject and object is impossible.
Our original identity, our natural state, appears so effortlessly and intimately as beingness we simply overlook this aware presence…believing instead the appearances of an external world of subjects and objects projected by the brain/mind with us at the center as the perceiver, the me, the I.
The personal identity of the Anita character was shattered in 2011. Decades of working on the inner beliefs and concepts through counseling and bodywork loosened the grip of the psychological webbing holding the personal self in place. Later, I came upon self inquiry and dove deeply into the abyss of the unconscious tapes and the traps of the mental processes that were preventing the seeing beyond the relative mental processes of the brain/mind.
The teaching and writings here point towards the perceptions, thoughts, and beliefs the dualistic brain/mind uses to keep you believing you are a separate self where a separate self has ever existed. The philosophy and inquiry tools here will help you explore for yourself, by yourself, what you actually already are…as infinite, edgeless, aware presence.
When you notice you are glued to nonduality videos on YouTube, reading nonduality websites, and pouring over nonduality books you likely have a yearning and a seed germinating to uncover what you really are as impersonal consciousness, as this aware perfection, as this peace, equanimity.