For more than fifty years I identified as a Christian pilgrim, a child of God, living in God’s perfect Universe. Still, I suffered great fear, panic, pain, and devastating losses because I believed I was a personal self contained within the boundaries of my skin and living in a time and space universe.

In 2011, all psychological suffering and fear evaporated when objective reality and a personal self as Anita was seen to be an obvious misperception.

I saw directly, deeply, and clearly what I am – what you are, and everything is…a spontaneous, uncaused, edgeless, appearance of this unknowable aware presence. 

I encourage you to deeply explore WHAT you are and explore and investigate all the stories you tell yourself about yourself and the world you believe you inhabit. It’s hard NOT to believe our teachers, parents, professors, friends, spiritual leaders and all those we esteem in higher education, religion, science, and philosophy when they tell us over and over that we are separate and distinct human beings…and yet most of these folks have never inquired about what they truly are.

It’s challenging to fly against the prevailing winds and beliefs of society but I encourage you to be brave because you are precious and unique just the way you are, a reflection of the light and mystery of the unknowable. And you are lovely and loving beyond your wildest imaginings.

And by the way…I’m a mom, granny, wife to Tony, extreme introvert, devotee of silence, animal lover, addicted to movies, writing, and reading books, and I revere rivers and oceans…


The story of awakening is here: story-of-anita-awakening.